I. Am. Back. Bitchez!

It’s been a very long time, hasn’t it? Two and a half years since I waved a tearful goodbye to y’all, clutching a sodden hankie to my chest. So much has happened in that time, and yet, so much hasn’t changed. It’s a weird dichotomy, but it’s one I’m willing to embrace.

When I shut down my blog, I thought it’d be for good. Well, never say never or forever and all that ::JAZZ HANDS:: because here I am, revving up my blog again. I’m not sure exactly what I want to say because I’m not sure exactly what I want to do with my personal blog. But, if you bear with me, we can figure this out together.

I don’t blog politically any more. I burned out after the 2012 elections, and I haven’t yet recovered. I still keep up with politics, but I’m not nearly as involved in them as I once was. I started feeling like I was spitting in the wind, and, honestly, I didn’t have the fire I once had for it.

I gave up on writing for a while – or rather, it gave up on me. I couldn’t write blog posts because I was censoring myself as I went, afraid to let the real me speak. What posts I managed to write were antiseptic and devoid of life – something that my writing has never been. In turn, that inhibition stifled my ability to write fiction as well so that I couldn’t write anything at all. I was too aware how some of my opinions weren’t popular or could be perceived as problematic, and I allowed it to silence me. It was only when the Suey Park/#CancelColbert mess happened on Twitter* that I felt I had to speak up. I was appalled that she was becoming the face of Asian American activism, and I needed people to know that not all Asian Americans agreed with her.

That’s when I realized that I was sitting on stuff that needed to be expressed or I would have a coronary holding it in. I’m still nervous because what I have to say may piss off people on my side, but I can no longer keep silent. There’s some shit that I need to say, and I don’t want to be restrained in how I say it, so I figured that dusting the cobwebs from this place and hanging out my shingle out again would be the way to go.

I also want to give this place a facelift to make it easier on the eyes. While I’m partial to the black background/light words combination, I know most people prefer the opposite. I will also see if I can streamline the site to make it user-friendly. In other words, you’re going to have to deal with some chaos and confusion while I** tinker in the bowels of the website.

I also have to get reacquainted with the intricate workings of WordPress so forgive me if I make some mistakes as I try to remember how to navigate the dashboard. Mistakes will be made, mostly by me.

In addition, I am still working on making my freelance editing/writing career happen, but at the same time, I have neglected my fiction for far too long. I have some ideas about the latter, which I detail at my fiction blog, which you can find here.

I am a writer. I write. I have missed it terribly when I was unable to do it, and I’m ready to return with a vengeance. I have accepted that my writing will suck in the beginning – the penalty for taking time off – but I am confident that like Stella, I will get my groove back,****¬†and I want you all to come along for that roller coaster ride.

Welcome me home, bitchez. It’s like I never left.

 

*I am not going to get into that now. I’ll probably write a post about it at some point, though.

**By ‘I’ I mean my website manager.***

***My brother

****I know she was talking about a whole ‘nother kind of groove, but, metaphor, people!

 

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