I don’t belong in this world. I realized that when I was in my teens, but I have felt it since–well since I was sentient, I suppose. I tried to fit in–god knows I tried. However, I could never imitate that which I didn’t quite understand. I did my best. I had feathered bangs in… Continue Reading
Category Archives: Personal Life
A Life Worth Living
OK, I lied. I do have something to say. Here we go. My life has been defined by what I’m not and what I don’t like. When I was a kid, I didn’t like playing with dolls. I didn’t want to wear skirts or dresses. I didn’t dream about my wedding day, and I didn’t… Continue Reading
Meh, in the Internet Sense
I’m not feeling it today. Here’s a video for you. Maybe I’ll be hit with inspiration later. Oh, I have to say one thing. A woman on Balloon Juice, who also has a thing for Alan Rickman, has a friend who had a drink with him. I am eaten up with envy. That is all.… Continue Reading
A New Woman
It’s funny what a twenty-five degree drop in the weather will do for you. Ok, maybe not for you, but for me, certainly. It puts a spring in my step and a smile in my heart. Or not. Let’s not get too carried away. It does, however, dial the crankiness down a few dozen notches,… Continue Reading
I’m a Delicate Flower
Stop laughing. I am, damn it. Shut the fuck up! Ok, I am not a delicate flower, but I sure as hell feel like one when I am outside in plus-eighty weather. It’s supposed to reach 92° today, which is my idea of a living death. Today is grocery-shopping day, and I had to drop… Continue Reading
Fuck It All
I just read an entry from my friend, whabs’ blog. It is beautiful, poignant, and lyrical. She talks about her life journey and how she is now ready to live life passionately. This entry really touched me because I am feeling the exact opposite these days. I have been in a deep funk for the… Continue Reading
Religious Rapture, Part VII
Ok. We are at the end of a week of religion-based entries, and this is the final installment. No, this doesn’t mean I will never write about religion ever again–only that I have other things about which I want to blog, and a week solid of any one topic is more than enough (except, of… Continue Reading
Religion and Reason, Part VI
Ok. I had it all mapped out in my mind how this entry was going to go. Wouldn’t you know it? President Obama beat me to it. He gave the commencement speech at Notre Dame today amid controversy and a few hecklers. Here is Part I: Now, in case you don’t know, the talking heads… Continue Reading
Religion Redux, Part V
So. Over the past four days, I have outlined my spiritual journey until this point in my life. It hasn’t been easy, and I still struggle with my spirituality. I have made my peace, for the most part, with Christianity. I no longer hate God (with a capital G) or am mad at Him.… Continue Reading
Faith No More (Religion, Part IV)
So. My “Fuck You, God” phase did not end with a bang, but with a whimper. It’s difficult to maintain that level of rage for any sustained amount of time. Besides, I had pretty much done all the experimenting I wanted to do at that point–and there was still an emptiness inside me. What to… Continue Reading