I had therapy yesterday this week instead of tomorrow as usual. It was an unusually productive session. I will talk about it more in a minute, but first, I am going to bitch a second about how unfair it is that I can’t get drunk without feeling immediate physical side-effects–and I’m not talking pleasant ones.… Continue Reading
Shiny, Pretty Distractions
I have OCD issues with one interesting outlier: I tend to be easily sidetracked. When I am having a conversation, I will follow a different thought until its logical conclusion, and then I will return to the main discussion. Or, I will use the tangent to launch a completely different subject altogether. Part of this… Continue Reading
Growing Pains
Many years ago, I performed a piece called Shedding Skins. It was about how as we mature, we change our beliefs. I had on different personae outfits that I shed as I did the piece. At the end, I recited a poem I wrote and stripped down to my panties. I left the panties on… Continue Reading
A Tangible Expression of Love
i have a twin in spirit her name is Kel i haven’t met her in person yet but one day soon, i will. she knows i am struggling so she sent me a Sekrit Weapon i can wrap it around me when i sleep so the demons cannot get in. she poured her heart and… Continue Reading
One Foot After the Other
I had a tough session today. My therapist told me things I did not want to hear, but they needed to be said. Let me be clear that my therapist cares very deeply about me. She also won’t put up with my shit. Which is good because I am very good at throwing out shit… Continue Reading
The Slow Reveal
All right. Today, I am going to start by doing something I rarely do: I am going to pat myself on the back. I have a difficult time congratulating myself when I do something good, so I have decided to do that now. Here. In the first paragraph of this entry. I have two things… Continue Reading
Weight of My Tears
First of all, I would like to say to the companies who spend a bajillion dollars on the Super Bowl ads: It’s not a smart idea to alienate a good chunk of your prospective consumers by creating such fucking misogynistic ads. Yeah, I’m looking at you, Bridgestone, for whomever the fuck Jim Nantz was pimping,… Continue Reading
And Bad Mistakes, I’ve Made a Few
I am incredibly sad right now. I had to throw that out there because it’s the prevailing feeling I have. Well, along with the emotional fatigue, that is. I can’t stop thinking about how my family is falling apart. And, right or wrong, I can’t help thinking it’s all my fault. Oh, I know it’s… Continue Reading
Reluctant Realizations
I am an adult. I wanted to start out with that because I don’t often feel like an adult, and I don’t always act like one, either. In addition, I don’t get treated like one in my family, especially when the whole family is together. Once the baby, always the baby, I guess. Secondly,… Continue Reading
It’s Over
I got an email from my mother today. After imparting news, she informs me that after the ‘fun memories’ of my visit to Taiwan have faded, she and my father have gotten around to talking about me and my life. This is never a good thing. Never, ever, ever. She attached two letters to… Continue Reading