I had a really hard therapy session today. My therapist told me some things I didn’t want to hear, but in the end, they were exactly what I needed to hear. To make a short story long, I have to give some background. Here it is. I am lazy. Ok, I hear people protesting. “Minna,”… Continue Reading
Blowin’ and Throwin’
I’m mad. I’m mad that I have to be dealing with this eating bullshit again, especially now. I’m mad that as a highly-intelligent woman, I can’t stop equating my worth to a number on the scale. I mean, my blood pressure is a steady 120/80, and my cholesterol is low. My pulse is good, and… Continue Reading
It’s Not Just Food
Ok. I had my therapist appointment today, and we discovered that I am fucked up when it comes to food. No, really! I know, amazing, but true. I have had ED issues since I was eighteen. Twenty years. To recap, I went on a strict diet right before going to college because I decided that… Continue Reading
Welcome Back, Bitchez!
Hello, bitchez. Have you missed me? I have missed you–and blogging. I kind of took blogging for granted before I embarked on my third NaNoWriMo, and I didn’t realize how much I got out of it. So I am back with a vengeance, though I cannot say better than ever. First, housecleaning details: 200,220… Continue Reading
NaNoWriMo Update–Week Four
Feh. I have been wickedly sick for the past week and a half, so I haven’t made my personal daily goal this week. I am not very happy about it, but I am trying to cut myself some slack. Admittedly, I’m not very good at it, but eh. So, I have readjusted my goal… Continue Reading
Random Post for Whabs
Since whabs is grumbling about her friends not blogging and saying we suck, I decided I would do a quick random post just for her. There, whabs. Now you can’t say I’ve never done anything for you. How am I? Fucking sick, thank you very much. For any guys who are reading and who don’t… Continue Reading
NaNoWriMo Update–Week Three
Hi. I am on track with NaNoWriMo. As of last night, I have 150,007 words. However, I still feel shitty, so I am trying to decide if I’m going to crank out 7,500 words tonight. I have to admit, it is amusing me to receive the NaNoWriMo pep talks telling me to hang in… Continue Reading
NaNoWriMo Update – Week Two
Small bit of good news. I have reached my daily goal for NaNoWriMo thus far. I was going to update y’all on how I’ve done for the second week, but then the stupid flashbacks got in the way. So. I haven’t done my writing for today yet, but through November 15, I have 112,515 words.… Continue Reading
The Making of a Childhood Snuff Film
Ed. Note: I have been thinking about this post since yesterday. I wrote it earlier this afternoon, but I didn’t publish it. Why? Because it’s pretty damn grim (and I say that full-well realizing that I have posted several grim entries), and I wasn’t sure I wanted could stomach having other people read it. However,… Continue Reading
Eros or Thanatos, Part Deux
Ed. Note: This is a continuation of sorts from the entry posted below. It would make more sense if you read that one first, but it’s not necessary. This can be read as a stand-alone. I woke up today feeling like a completely different person than I was yesterday. The sky was a soft, light… Continue Reading